Once again, CONFUSED!

Ladies and gentlemen, i am sure you have all been through what I am about to tell you. CONFUSED! No, not like school work confused, job wise confused, but relationship confused! So here is my dilemma: Ever begin to talk to someone and not really know where it's going to go? Then you begin to develop a lot of  feelings for them, and nervous to know what you guys after you have been talking for almost two months? Then finally you develop the courage to ask and they tell you they don't want a relationship. -__- Yup, that is exactly what happened to me. ON TOP OF THAT!! One of my best friends friends likes me a lot. SO me and him talk as friends and i start to like him because he's really sweet and treats me how a girl should be treated. Problem is, i like the other jerk so much, i'm holding on to him for what reason, i do not know. So instead of me giving the advice today, i am in dire need of advice!

HELP! For my happiness what do i do? Put yourself in my shoes and try to see where i am coming from. Would you stick with someone that doesn't even want a relationship but you have already developed a lot of feelings for?  Or the one who wants to make you his world and treat you how you should be treated?

It may seem like a dumb question! But you have to realize, we are in high school, what is it going to look like where everyone knows you are talking to this one kid, then all of a sudden begin to date another. You want to know what that is called? A POP! Which i most certainly am NOT! The last thing i want is for someone to start spreading rumors around. Although, you should not care what others to think.

Anger

Have you ever been so mad yo're like a ticking time bomb? That if someone says or does the wrong thing your ready to explode on them? That's how my week has been going. Deciding to be so upset at the world, and give everyone attitude has been my motive for the week. When i sit and think about it, is it truly worth being so mad and upset about. You know it takes more muscles to frown then to smile? So why stay so upset? I realize that people need to stop taking life for granted. They drink,smoke, yell argue, abuse the ones they love for the feelings they have bottled up inside. No one deserves to have another's anger taken out on them. That's why there is so much violence and the death rate increased. You only have one life to live so why waste it on being such a angered person? I feel like what ever is causing someone to do such terrible things should end everything, and cut that part out of their lives so they stop being so miserable and open their eyes to the greatness the world actually does have to offer. Even though there is war and criminals that is not the only thing out there. If you have a kid, embrace every thing about them. Cherish every moment you have with your loved ones because you never know if it could be your last. So rather then argue about the stupid little things solve it and MOVE ON. Honestly being upset at someone isn't worth it. So as I am giving you guys this advice, I should follow it too. Such as in highschool when teens fight over a girl friend or boy friend, or oweing someone money , or even talking "ish" about someone. IT TRULY ISNT WORTH IT> Move on and be happy.

Mother (:

Today is April 14th, 2011. Somtime ago this very day my mother was born (not going to say exactly how many years). So i decided to dedicate today's blog about her. Hmmm, what can i say about my mother. Well, to start off i have no idea what i would do with out her. She is the only person i have in this world. We have been through so much the last couple of years. She is one of the strongest people i know. Why? Simply because she took on the challenge of raising three kids, two teenagers and a newborn, by herself after going through a heart break of losing her beloved husband, my father. Even though that occured she still kept a smile on her face, and is raising us the best she can. She lets NO obsticles get in her way. SHe has the greatest personality, i don't know of any mother that gets along with their kids in the sense she odes with me and my brother. I know this blog may seem like i'm sucking up, but i truly am not, this all is coming from the heart. Don't get me wrong though all teenagers argue with their parents every now and then like me and her doo. But hey its a healthy thing too. Not every relationship is perfect.(: I pray and hope that my mother has many more healthy years ahead of her, because after all i need her to walk me down that isle when my time for marriage has come. Words can't describe how much i love my mom. I know i can be her "headache" every now and then but i'll gladly be that headache! She is the reason who am i today, and I thank her for bringing me into this world. <3 HAPPY BIRTHDAYY MA!

Mindless

I sit here, waiting..

wondering..if you are too

or am i in this alone?

are you just having your fun

then leave when bored?

Sorry to ruin it for you hun, 

but that's not how it works

You may think i don't realize your game..

but i am not that mindless..

Its over baby boy

i am too good for you

and when i'm gone i hope you realize that to

you thought i was a fool

but i caught you in every thing you do

So watch me leave you life

bet you didn't realize i wanted to be the wife..

I walked out soon,

saving me from pain..

it hurts, it hurts that  i simply..

fell in love with you.

But i fell in  love with your lies

Two years of my life with you

but when  in love time flies

i was mindless..

let you play your games till it hurt the most

Now i'm done

realize what you had boy...

because you will never find another like me..

and yet, i still love you